Living ‘Me’


As I listen to the rain outside the window, there is a part of me that is grateful I will have a day inside. I have been neglecting all of the cleaning, laundry and tidying at home because I have been putting in long hours to get organized at work. It is also an opportunity for me to do whatever I choose today.

One of the things that I love to do is journal. Lately, my journaling consists of getting one of those large scrapbooks where I jot down all of the things I have to do. Instead, this morning at 6am, I started analyzing one of my dreams, which lead to dividing my life into decades, along the page.

Starting with headings of ‘childhood’ and then ‘teens’, ‘twenties’, ‘thirties’ and so on, I began to write what my life looked like and what I learned, in each decade. Childhood was mainly family and school, my teens consisted of tons of activities and dating, my twenties centered on university, college, starting a career, marriage and having a child. The highlights of my thirties were real estate, burnout, divorce, remarriage and a new career.

Now that I am in the latter part of my forties, I would have to say that my forties have been my favorite decade so far. This is the time in my life where I have been much more focused on what I need to be happy, at peace and on track to who I really am. My forties has brought a sense of clarity that I am fully responsible for my choices, my direction, my health and my happiness.

On the top of the page, I also wrote, fifties, sixties, seventies, eighties and nineties. It was in that moment where I realized that, although not guaranteed, I have the potential to experience more decades of living, ahead of me. In that moment, I felt much more excited that even though I have been feeling stressed lately, this time in my life is just one small chuck of time in my entire life experience.

I also assured myself that I feel stressed because I have made choices that have put me in a position of taking on a lot of responsibility. I decided, I chose, I accepted, I agreed, I said yes to piling a number of things on my plate. Although there is much to do, I also know that this is temporary and necessary to make things better and grow and transform into the vision we created in our mind.

It is remarkable how the mind can have an idea, a plan, a dream or a goal and then, with work and action and even stress, it can manifest into reality. Along the way, though, I find it is more essential than ever to implement the best of what I learned throughout the decades. I have to constantly remind myself of the wisdom that I have collected and gathered from my previous life experiences, so far.

When life gets crazy, busy, overwhelming or out of control, I will need to continue to journal and remember the five things that always manage to get me through. Life is: 1. Expecting the Downs; 2. Being Grateful; 3. Trying New Things; 4. Adventuring & Exploring; 5. Living ‘Me’. Hopefully these can be helpful for you, as well.

Living ‘Me’ means making our home clean and cozy today, enjoying a good book, visiting family, listening to the rain, getting outside for photos or a motorcycle ride, the minute the sun shines, napping when I feel like it and cuddling on the couch with a good movie. Looks like my chaise lounge chair and a good book are calling me now. I must go. What is Living ‘You’?

‘If you do what you need, you’re surviving. If you do what you want, you’re living.’ ~ Author Unknown